Apologizing Without Explanations

Friday night, i watch telly for the first time in a long time. I caught Supernanny, which hasn't happened in even longer. Sadly, though, my realizations from that show could not be put down on the interweb due to a lack of internet access at the place i was catching up on all of my telly watching at.

I like Supernanny. well, especially when I haven't watched telly in a long time. I have analyzed the outcome of some peculiar parenting in the last nine months though. So, I loved the show that much more.

What struck me the most was how these parents refused to admit that they were in the wrong. Obviously, they wanted the help or they would not have agreed to go on the show, right? Well, I'm not exactly sure about how the contestants get onto Supernanny, but I'm sure that they must have been aware that they were going to be told how to improve their parenting and that part of that would illustrate what they were doing wrong. Yet, there was nothing but excuses.

This made me think about my life. Now, I hate to admit that I've done something wrong, although I do take things going badly as a personal result. When things get screwed up, I say, 'alright, what will I do next time instead?' My excuse then becomes that I had never been in that position before and therefore needed to learn the lesson somewhere.

Well, lately I think I've failed to actually learn lessons. I merely chalk it all up to experience and rid myself of any guilt I should feel about how I'm either making mistakes, hurting myself or hurting others.

There is a list of life lessons left in my room from some past GAP student. I look at it almost daily and read through it, yet never seem to let them all sink in. The one I am thinking most about this week is: 'Remember the 3Rs - Respect for others, Respect for yourself and Responsibility for your actions.' My failure in the last is affecting the first two. So, i hope to work on that over the next month.